Mum wants me to move on. She says it's not natural, the way I'm behaving.
I think she wants me to forget. She says she 'understands' that I must be 'feeling rough', but thinks that 'the best thing' for me would be to 'try and move on'.
Get a life, in other words.
But what if I don't want to get a life? Not a new one. I want my old one back. With you.
Mum says I should stop living in my memories. But why should I, when they're much better than what's really happening?
I just wish they weren't memories. I wish they were real again.